I do apologize to my blog readers for my ranting about emotional distress and what others have said to us. I have released it to the universe. They say you should never blame others for your own reactions to what they say. It does not mean they are not responsible for their words and actions. It does us no justice to dwell on what they say. The past is the past. Life is good these days and that is what maters the most.
I have talked about triggers before that evoke feeling inside of us. The documentary the other night and a recent visit with my husband to a doctor visit triggered some very raw emotions. I realized that they are triggers and perhaps they were testing me. I thought about them and realized that they are not going to hurt me. They only have power if I let them.
I actually feel very well and happy today. My husband said to me last night that he appreciated all that I have helped him with over the past five years. He said if the roles had been reversed, he is not sure he could have done as good a job as I have. I am so proud of him as he is taking control of his heath issues. He has relieved a lot of emotional stress from me by educating himself about his health issues. He is taking responsibility for his life. It is difficult for me as a nurse when loved ones want me to make decisions for them. I can support their decisions and help educate them, but they have to make their own decisions. It puts a lot of emotional distress on me or anyone when expected to carry the weight of all the emotional burden.. I love him too much to carry a burden around and then to think I made a wrong decision for him.
So the past is history and I am so excited about the weekend. We are going to celebrate life, after all that was the goal of the long journey with Cancer. We learned to be grateful for every moment that we have. We are thankful for all the doctors who keep searching for those cures.
Happy Easter! Life is beautiful !!!
Elizabeth:)
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