Nervous Giggles

I have the nervous giggles today as I sit in a commons area at MD Anderson  waiting for my husband who is having medical tests done. I developed the giggles at just the right time as I was feeling anxious  as something had triggered a thought from the past.  For a few moments  I thought I would start crying. Thank goodness for my friend who sent me a hilarious e-mail that redirected my thoughts and made me start giggling.

I have noted that the last couple of visits to MD Anderson have made me a little anxious. And yet this place is like a safe haven to us.  Many smiling faces have passed my husband and I, as we sit and wait in between test. There is an enormous amount of energy here and blessings  from a lot of people. I remind myself of how blessed we are to be here. A volunteer has seen my husband napping and told us of a quiet place that we can rest until our next appointment. She was like an angel that appeared out of no where. I appreciated her help even though my adrenaline is pumping too much to sleep.

I was thinking of Laney and how she would love seeing all the people here today. She loves people and people are always drawn to her.  I find comfort in thinking about her and I am glad that I have pictures. of her on our I-pad.

We have been  awake since before the roosters and we have been at MD Anderson seven hours. They have just announced a two hour delay for CT scans.  I hope my giggles are contagious as I see people growing anxious. My blessings to all who work at MD Anderson. As we sit here waiting, I am reminded that because of these dedicated workers  my husband is still here to share life with me.  Gratitude and thanks to all!