An Angel

Today has been an emotionally packed day. My husband's and my emotions have been all over the place. We received good news from the doctor, as all his test results were good.  A  reason to celebrate as he continues to be in remission.  Now he is resting quiet as he receives a maintenance treatment.  We are so blessed and thankful to all at MD Anderson!

I was reading someone else's blog about being a caregiver and it brought me to tears.  I remembered how back in 1997 that I was in shock over my husband's diagnose. We were living a happy life with our two children and then out of nowhere we felt like a semi hit us. But, I do recall that we continued to live our life as normal as possible. We made a pledge to each other to keep positive for our children and ourselves.  It was hard at times as people sometimes say things to you without thinking of how harsh they sound. I know you understand if you are a caregiver. It is an emotional roller coaster especially when it is your spouse. Everybody's life around you continues and you try to be grateful for each day.  I still feel that even today as we are blessed with remission that each day is to be lived to the fullest. We go to bed exhausted most nights. There are no maybe we should wait. We remind ourselves that life is like a timer, so have fun and enjoy each other before the buzzer.

I am blessed that after 15 years and three relapses with Lymphoma, we are still are in love.  We endured my mother's illness at the same time my husband was going through chemotherapy in 1997. I think back now and realize how strong I really am.  I was constantly being pulled in two directions and doing what I felt was the right thing to do. Today my husband reminded me that  I was his angel. I am glad that he feels that way, as I feel that he has been most patient with me as my emotions are  all over the place.  Some things  are meant to be. Loving my husband through all the rough times was meant to be. We are blessed with two great children and one spoiled dog named Laney  Life is beautiful!!