Life Is What We Make Of It

Today was the first time I have read my blog post, "A Perfect Love Story", since I posted it.   It made me cry thinking of how much I miss Laney.  She did help heal broken hearts and bring happiness and love to our life.  I now feel that I am suffering along with my husband from a broken heart over loosing Laney.  I wonder if a broken heart ever really mends or do we just replace memories with new ones.  There is so much happening everyday that we just have to go on living without her.  We still talk to her as if she is here, but the physical absence is difficult.

We decided to take a trip south to warmer weather and ended up with ten days of sunshine. Laney would have loved it.  It was great feeling the warmth of the sun and difficult to come back north to rain and gloom.  There are lots of flowers and things coming up in the flower beds and we are hoping that the cold weather that has descended upon us will not kill the budding trees and plants.  Mother nature in the north is full of surprises one day to the next.  The temperature dropped ten degrees in one hour this morning. We are praying this will be the last of the drastic weather changes and please no more bad storms.

It was quite sad returning to an empty house Sunday night.  There was no Laney to greet us and do her little dance and twirl around in the excitement of seeing us.  I wish she could have lived forever.  My husband has been equally heartbroken and who ever said men don't cry.  We met a couple on our trip that also lost their dog which was also a shih tzu.  The husband admitted he had never cried so hard in all his life and he could barely talk about the loss.  Dogs are really man's best friend.  They are smiles from god just like flowers.

The big question I hear these days is will we get another dog.  Right now we are still grieving over Laney.  I am not sure I want to replace her yet.  I guess time will tell.  I am adjusting to the freedom of no responsibility to take care of a pet or children.  It is allows me to focus more on myself and figure out what I want to do next.  On the other hand I still have my husband who is relishing in the fact that he is number one for attention now. LOL!

So what is next, life is always full of surprises.  Maybe I will have more time to write now and practice my french.  La vie est ce que nous en faisons.

Life is beautiful !!
Elizabeth:)