Calls to Heaven

My son called me to sound off about the frustrating day he was having.  I was unable to help him, but I was reminded of the comfort of having a parent to call.  I did not say much, but I listened and assured him it will get better.  After I hung up I was wishing that I had a mother to call.  I have felt so alone the last couple of years and I wished there was a 1-800 number to call for mothers in heaven.  It would be comforting to know there was someone to listen to my own frustrations and anxiety.

My husband always gives me the phone when the kids call.  He says they want their mother.  I always smile, as they are adults now, yet they still find great comfort in telling me all their worries.  I guess there is comfort in knowing we have someone that will listen to us and love us unconditionally.  It is sad when we reach the point in life when we pick up the phone and realize that no mother is going to answer.  There is no one there to heal our wounds, give us advice, or  listen to us when we are excited about life.

No matter how many friends we have, they can not replace the comfort of having a mother.  If I could choose one good memory from my mother, it would be her voice saying hello.  I have cried myself to sleep many nights over the past three years just wanting one call to ease my pain.  One last call to hear her say, "I love you."

Cherish every call with your mother and consider yourself the lucky one if she is there on the other end to listen. 

Happy Birthday to my mother and mother-in-law in heaven.  Your December  birthdays are not forgotten.

Life is beautiful !!

Elizabeth

The Pursuit Of Life, Love, and Happiness

I realized today how much I miss writing on my blog.  I took the month of November off to clear my mind and work on making some new memories.  Hubby and I said goodbye to the past and started to make changes to deal with new challenges and move on with life.

Laney helped me kick cancer and death out of our house.  They are no longer welcome.  I took the advice of a social worker and decided to bring love, life and happiness back to our house.  We purged out things that were reminding us of the past, rearranged the furniture and decorated the house to entertain.  We started bringing life and laughter back by reclaiming Thanksgiving at our house. Surrounded by family we reminisced about our favorite things and laughed as we stuffed ourselves with good food.

Had fun with some of my friends recently that reminded me that I still have the strength and courage to make my own choices for a happy life.  I made myself heard as I asked some family members to take care of themselves, so I could claim back my own life.  That was a healthy choice for my own well being.  I think I left a few people speechless as I unleashed ten years of unspoken feelings.  I feel a little lighter these days and much more relaxed.  

Laney has rested on the couch the last couple of days as I decorated for Christmas.  The tree is adorned with new decorations and the calendar is filled with social outings.  I am looking forward to entertaining as the house smells like fresh cut pine and cinnamon.

Hubby is still leaving me love notes and I thank god everyday for love, life and happiness.  And of course, My Four Legged Friend Laney is always by my side.

Life is beautiful !!

Elizabeth