The Gift of Life and New Memories

I am trying to keep busy these days and enjoy every minute.  My husband and I are reminded everyday of the gift of life.  As the days are passing quickly, it has been almost six months since we were at MD Anderson.  Hubby seems to be doing well and we are praying his up coming check up and CT scans will continue to show remission.  He has told me he does not remember a lot from the past four years.  I on the other hand remember too much.  It seems I have an internal tape recorder which I wish had an erase button.  I try to practice shifting my own thoughts to my favorite things when my mind gets bogged down with the past events.  It is very heart breaking to watch your loved one struggle with memory problems, personality changes and anxiety that cancer brings.  It never leaves us, but we do not allow it to stop us from living.

I wish I could write and tell my friends and family that I had a bad dream and the last 16 years of living with cancer never happened.  Although, when I say 16 years it makes me think of how incredibly lucky we are to still be living and in love.  We have told each other many times how blessed we are to have come back strong each time cancer has made its presence in our life.  We have not let it take our spirit for love, laughter, and happiness.  It has tested us many times, but we fought back.  We are hoping that with new research and drugs we can keep winning. 

Everyday is filled with new adventures like dancing to create new memories.  The Cha Cha proved to be a challenge as the instructor said it was the hardest dance step to learn.  We laughed as we practiced it.  I thought to myself all is possible with love and determination.  Next week we learn the Merengue dance.  The instructor is funny, as he told us all we needed to know was how to count to eight to Merengue.  I wonder if he meant in English or French.  LOL!  I think I'll stick to English.

Life is beautiful with you my husband!!

Elizabeth

Dancing with the Leaves

For the last seven days, we have had sunshine everyday with the bluest sky.  The temperatures have been in the 70's for daytime highs.  It has been awesome weather for being outside.  Laney and I have been taking daily walks and soaking up as much sunshine as possible.  We are headed outdoors again to start pulling up some seasonal foliage that has started to wither due to the cool nights.  The weather forecast is for rain later this week.   I am enjoying looking at the fall colors as the leaves are falling now.

I read some of my blog postings from the previous October and saw we had frost earlier.  We are definitely running a little behind schedule for the cool daytime temperatures and a lot of my flowers are still blooming.   I wish it would stay this way forever.

Hubby and I were out on the bike path this weekend.  It will probably be the last ride of the season as the bike paths were covered with leaves.  It was fun to ride the bikes as the leaves were falling.  I ended up with some in my hair.  I told hubby they were hair ornaments.

It is off to dance lessons tonight.  We are learning the cha cha.  Looking forward to dancing the night away. I am going outside now to cha cha with Laney as we enjoy this beautiful fall day.  Maybe we will dance amongst the leaves.

Life is beautiful !!

Elizabeth